A message from Carlos Pam Ayres has made me romantic!

Wow! A long and detailed email from Carlos today. It's scary how he actually reads what I tell him! I am so relieved that he is not embarrassed about my talk of lady parts lol! I'm quite concerned about Carlos though as he appears to be physically different from other humans. He has more than one heart! "my heart they beat so fast". Poor Carlos. He'd better take it easy.

Hi sweetie,

How are you doing today hope fine? You just told me you had a mishap that landed you at the hospital ,i am so sorry about that i think you need to be very careful when cooking and get things done properly i really wish i was around to help you get few things done. I was a bit worried when i didn't get to read from you,but its alright at least i got to read from you which i consider very important.
You can tell me more about your boiler been broken lol, that is tough babe its cold right now you really need to get that done fast, have you hosted the dinner or you were about to do that? i didn't get that straight, more so babe i love more of Pizza to hummus, i think i love the magaritta Italian type of it, meanwhile i think you really spend time in the kitchen babe mmmmmmm, that's good honey i can't wait to have that taste of delicious meal from you, it will be great to watch you do that in the kitchen.

One of the things that has really amazed me about you was the fact that you are a very hardworking woman and guess what i love that dearly, it is good for one to have a romantic life and be committed to he or she does, i do think you are a perfect woman for me, we'll definitely get to meet soon babe and we can move on with our greater future.you have really touched my heart in a unique way, your mentality and understanding about relationship is something i cherish so much, honey at my age i can't be that embarrassed about you telling me about your intimate lady parts. i really wish i was there watch you do that,you are a very funny person and i can tell you that i am enjoying every moment with you, each mail from you has really hit me so good and i want to read from you again and again,honey love is strong and yet delicate, i was reading the mails we' ve exchange and all i could say was getting to meet you was a great privilege for me and i want to hold on to that for the rest of my life.
Honey in all things we just have to be thankful to God , probably he knew that will happen why that same day the engineer hath to come, just give thanks to God babe i really hope you are getting better now and you're using your drugs as prescribe by the doctor, i couldn't believe my angel fell on a marble and was there for 2 and half hours, I'm sorry about that babe, i guess one of the reason why we need to get together on time so we can get things done the way it ought to be.

mmmmmmmmmmm Pam Ayres i think she's a good writer and a broadcaster and i think since you made that recomendation babe i think i need to read more of her poem, i think i can now figure our why you were more romantic, and fun to be with and i can tell again and again honey i truly want to continue this awesome moment with you continue till we finally meet.

You know sweetie i wish dream were like wishes, and wishes came true, cause in my dreams i'm always with you,you know i read one of  Elizabeth Bowen poem and she says when you love someone, all your saved-up wishes start coming out.i can't just deny this feelings i have for you in my heart.you are such a pretty woman and i tend to spend the rest of my life with you pronouncing you will love me.honey there are many things i wanted to say, but i think words alone are not enough to really express how much i care for you,i just truly hope you can see through my mail, my heart they beat so fast longing to be with you.take care of yourself for me babe and always remember that this man loves you with all his heart.kisses all over you.
Have a wonderful and pleasant Sunday.
Love and kisses,
Carlos.

A reply from Carlos - He is so scare about animal.

After breaking my tragic news to Carlos about losing my foot to a bunch of marauding pigs, all he can say is that I should give glory to God!! How about a bit of sympathy eh Carlos?!! He does say his love for me is unconditional (even without 2 of my toes) so I guess I should be grateful for that!


Hello Sweetie,

How is life treating you there? I am sorry for what happened to you this is a sad experience,i was thinking that you no longer interested that is why you kept silent but is now clear to me what happen,you were so lucky one thing i know in this life is that things happen for a purpose so we can't question God for it,i know for sure that what happened to you will bring happiness to your life. I am happy for what you said about Losing your foot has given you an idea for a new business. I am so scare about animal because i feel they hurt easily, well all i can say is for you to give glory to God.

I want you to know that when i love i love completely so nothing will change my mind,the love i have for you is unconditional love, so losing 2 of your toes is never a barrier,in as much i love so i will continue to love you till the end. Always remember that no matter the circumstances i will always be there for you.This is all i can say for now.
Hug and kisses,
Carlos.

A message to Carlos - could he ever love a wonky woman?

I thought it was about time that Carlos knew the full extent of my tragic accident. I just hope he can find it in his heart to sill love me now I am minus a foot.

My dearest darling Carlos.

I do hope you can forgive me for my prolonged absence from contacting you. The last few weeks have been an utter nightmare Carlos, only thoughts of you have kept me sane. Had it not been for a picture of you that I keep in my purse, I fear I would have gone insane. Being able to look at your gorgeous face made me keep fighting and kept my spirits up.

I did send you a quick email explaining that I had had an accident and would reply later and I never did. For this I apologise. This is because I was taken back into hospital and had no interent access.

I shall now explain the awful details of what happened to me.

Remember I told you all about the sheep refuge that I help out at? The refuge had a call about some sheep that were no longer being productive in the wool department and were being sent to slaughter. They agreed that they would collect and home them at the refuge and asked me if I would drive the van to  pick them up. As I had a free afternoon I said I would. I do so like to help out when I can :) Sadly, my giving nature was to become my downfall.

I safely loaded the sheep into the special van and made sure they were secured into their individual harnesses. I thought I would just have a 5 minute sit down before setting off and eat my sandwhich I had made for my lunch. It can be quite hard work loading the sheep as they are feisty little things! I spotted some pigs in pen further across the farm yard so went to have a little look. I do love pigs Carlos! Their snubby little noses and piggy eyes are just so adorable don't you think?  The pigs all came rushing towards the fence when they saw me approach and I just couldn't help but climb into their pen to give them a fuss. Sometimes I am just too soft for my own good lol! Being the softy that I am, I ended up sharing my sandwhich with them. Who'd have thought that pigs would like hummous, grated carrot and chinese leaf? Anyway, the pigs seemed starving so I thought I would go back to the van and get some more bits of food for them ( there was a stash of crisps, biscuits and canapes left by the last driver) As I climbed over the fence, my left foot became wedged between the bars and I fell forward. I must have hit my head and knocked myself unconscious as I cannot remember anything of what happened next.

I awoke sometime later to find myself with my foot still stuck in the fence but in extreme agony. I could barely belive what I was seeing! The pigs were eating my foot! They had chewed clean through my boot and made a meal of my poor foot. I had lost 2 and a half toes, most of my heel and the ball of by foot was now a gaping hole! I cannot even begin to describe the pain I was in. I managed to get my phone out of my pocket and call an ambulance. I was drifiting in and out of consciousness, helpless and alone Carlos. I was so very scared. Oh Carlos, I though I was going to die. The ambulance men managed to distract the pigs by throwing some apples into their pen and as they all rushed to eat them, they freed my foot and dragged me to safety. They gave me morphine for the pain and rushed me to hospital. On the way there, they told me how lucky I was. I can tell you that I didn't feel very lucky! Apparently, an old lady had been eaten by pigs on her way home from playing bingo so I guess I had a pretty lucky escape. Here is a link to the story in the news.

Woman eaten by pig

Anyway, to cut a long story short, the doctors were marvelous. They patched up my foot and assured me that all would be well. Unfortunately, it became badly infected and had to be amputated. I know this must come as a terrible shock to you Carlos. I have now had time to come to terms with my fate and the sad fact that I shall be a one footed woman for the rest of my life. The big question is, Carlos, my darling Carlos, could you ever truely love a lady who has only one foot? Could you want to spend your life with a wonky woman, a hobbling girl? The thought of you and I living our lives together eventually has given me hope. I know you are a true gentleman Carlos, a man of his word, an honest and noble man. I just pray that you don't turn your back on me now that I am no longer complete. Losing my foot changes nothing. I am still a woman of passion and need a man like you in my life Carlos.

Losing my foot has given me an idea for a new business too so it's not all bad. False limbs are just so ugly! I intend working with some local designers and poets to produce a range of beautiful to look at, false limbs for the more descerning amputee. "Poetic, Aesthetic Prosthetics" will combine high end design with inspirational text to produce a beautiful yet practical prosthetics. My mind is a whirl of ideas and I feel exciting times ahead Carlos, I really do!  Who would have thought that such a tragic accident could lead to such an amazing  money making opportunity? Heather Mills (the ex Mrs Paul McCartney) has already said that she would love to be a spokesperson on our behalf and Def Leppard drummer Rick Allen has agreed to allow us to use some of their lyrics on our limbs. Can you imagine the lyrics from 'Let's get rocked', expertly hand painted on a leg?

"Oh, all I wanna do is take a ride into the blue
Ev'ry time I want to love you I get stuck inside my room
Heaven knows I'm sick'n'tired of dancin' with this broom "

Inspirational stuff eh?

Well my darling, I have to go and do my physiotherapy now. I am determined to keep going and not be brought down by this. Pigs may have taken my foot but they will never take my fighting spirit or dignity! NEVER!!

I can't wait to hear from you again Carlos, I love and miss you so very very much.

All my love and devotion

Tess xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

PS You're not an acrotomophile by any chance are you?